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Monday, October 6th, 2008

8:35 pm

LJ is soo two years ago!
so life is...at times...
good
adventurous
scary
fun
hard
enjoyable
difficult
new
boring
uncomfortable
confusing..
but it is always an amazing blessing.

that's my update! enjoy.

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Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006

7:40 pm

If you are reading this you are invited, me and kim are going camping tomorrow night and you should come, there will be some pretty cool peeps there.

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Monday, May 8th, 2006

5:48 pm

Psalm 40
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

1 I waited patiently for the LORD;
he turned to me and heard my cry.

2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.

3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD.

4 Blessed is the man
who makes the LORD his trust,
who does not look to the proud,
to those who turn aside to false gods. [a]

5 Many, O LORD my God,
are the wonders you have done.
The things you planned for us
no one can recount to you;
were I to speak and tell of them,
they would be too many to declare.

6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire,
but my ears you have pierced [b] , [c] ;
burnt offerings and sin offerings
you did not require.

7 Then I said, "Here I am, I have come—
it is written about me in the scroll. [d]

8 I desire to do your will, O my God;
your law is within my heart."

9 I proclaim righteousness in the great assembly;
I do not seal my lips,
as you know, O LORD.

10 I do not hide your righteousness in my heart;
I speak of your faithfulness and salvation.
I do not conceal your love and your truth
from the great assembly.

11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD;
may your love and your truth always protect me.

12 For troubles without number surround me;
my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see.
They are more than the hairs of my head,
and my heart fails within me.

13 Be pleased, O LORD, to save me;
O LORD, come quickly to help me.

14 May all who seek to take my life
be put to shame and confusion;
may all who desire my ruin
be turned back in disgrace.

15 May those who say to me, "Aha! Aha!"
be appalled at their own shame.

16 But may all who seek you
rejoice and be glad in you;
may those who love your salvation always say,
"The LORD be exalted!"

17 Yet I am poor and needy;
may the Lord think of me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
O my God, do not delay.

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Wednesday, October 26th, 2005

7:44 pm

fall out boy tomorrow!
so i have a extra free ticket to fall out boy, it's a taping of the carson daily show(i think, it's some show anyhow.) mhm.

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Saturday, October 22nd, 2005

6:23 pm

im totally bored.
if your bored to, come and play with me.
<3
....you know where i live.

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Wednesday, October 5th, 2005

7:30 pm

UK John,Carlo,Jessica M ,Jessica F, & Amalia you've been tagged
10 years ago - 13, wow ten years ago, i was really depressed, my brother had just turned one, i was taking care of the house and my brother along with help from my sister, dealing with a massive amount of crap. listening to sublime and whatever else was on the radio. swinging on the tree swing in the back yard till 11 at night, thinking and day dreaming. little did i know my life was about to chance..

5 years ago -18,met jacky, david, steve weed, josh-X and all the cool p.d. people that i love so much today. going to concerts every weekend no matter how close or how far away it seemed. being free, dealing with random stuff in life. getting over things that had just happened. praying for understanding, and that i wouldn't mess up and screw up everything big time.

1 year ago - 22, about to start at the mountain, waiting on the call, blindside, mewithout you, bradley hathaway love. meeting some new amazing friends. being loved and loving back. growing younger with happiness. that year i met some new friends at work, that keep me interested.

Yesterday - getting rid of stuff in my room (mainly toys) filling out applications. anna came over and me her and kim watched "charlie and the chocolate factory", and "a lot like love", i made pop corn. trisha called me and was falling alseep on the phone, but it was a very good call.

10 songs I know all the words to:
jingle bells, happy birthday, marry had a little lamb, the itsy bitsy spider, whip it by devo, cocamo by the beach boys, day'O, and star'O by harry bellafonte, rock a by baby, and ring around the rossies.

5 things I'd do with 100 million:
by a house
take my friends out to dinner
buy a car
pay off this car
share in my own way

5 places to run away to:
san diego
wrightwood
any where in the car
painting
music
basketball night

5 things I should/would never wear:
thong bikini
shoes
someone else dirty sox
a dead fish
and braces

5 favorite TV shows (as of right now):

jummy nutron.
umm.. i dunno, i don't like that much.

5 joys:

friends
hugs
amazing talks
pool nights at annas
knowing god is there
and i add tricias
beautiful acts of God in nature

5 favorite toys:
paint
snow/water
boys
cars
friends

5 things I cannot stand:
being depressed
pot
cussing at the wrong time
suicide
my old boss

5 people I'm "tagging":
John : everydaywar
Carlo
Jessica Moreno (**mo*mo**)
Jessica Flores
Amalia

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Tuesday, September 27th, 2005

9:25 pm

San Diego...
I am lonly.
love you.

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Saturday, September 3rd, 2005

9:20 am

better.
love you.
thank you.

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Thursday, September 1st, 2005

10:05 am

hurting,

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Friday, August 19th, 2005

7:54 am

1. Go here. 2. Pass it on. ( this thing you do. )

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Tuesday, August 16th, 2005

10:59 am

to all my hardcore friends....i love you very much.
my P.D. crew. I love You.

"the annoying hardcore dude that goes too far" by: Bradley Hathaway

I am hardcore. I will windmill kick you in the face. Everybody back up, make a circle, let’s destroy this place. The lights are low and I’m about to go off. Here comes the break down, ka-ra-te chop! Raise up your arms, make an X if you’re down. Me and my crew, we own this stinkin’ town. Watch out for my fist, your face it will kiss on purpose. I’m tough and I’m ticked.

I don’t slow dance, I don’t salsa dance, forget the tango. I don’t slam dance you idiot, I dance hardcore. On the floor, I’m the man you’ve never seen before. When the drummer yells, “go!” it’s my time to blow.

And in between songs. I yell at the band, cause I don’t care what they have to say. I’m not here to learn anything anyway. I’m here to dance. In the zone, in a trance.

I don’t smoke cigarettes, but if she’s willing I’ll drop my pants. Promiscuous I am, but I’m vegan, I don’t eat ham or any of that stuff cause it’s bad for you, right? Save the animals, forget the sweatshop scandals!

I do not shop at hot topic. I am not Mall Core, I am hardcore. Madball, Hatebreed, Throwdown, Terror. I own all their records on colored vinyl, limited edition and hand numbered. But you won’t see me asking for no autograph. I ain’t lookin’ like no fool. I ain’t no pop culture tool.

If they ain’t screamin’, I ain’t listenin’. If they ain’t got a blast beat, I ain’t tappin’ my feet. I eat emo pansies for breakfast, and give their little t-shirts to my little sister. So cry about it you messenger bag, purse carrying whatever.

I wear girl pants, but I’m homophobic. Yet the way I’m always huggin’ on my homeboys you sure wouldn’t know it. I’ve had my ears stretched an inch since back in ’96. Somebody told me hardcore was a place to share what you believe, but I didn’t like what dude said, so I flipped him off and told him to leave.

I’m mad at society because my parents won’t buy me a new computer, even though I asked politely. My playstation 2 is broken, but my Xbox works. When that breaks though, something will hit the fan and I’ll express myself with rage and anger, just like a man. Cause that’s how it’s done, right? You get mad and start a fight, right? I think I may, I think I might, take my insecurities out on that punk in the pit tonight.

Cause really, I am just insecure. More than that, I’m kinda scared and hurting inside. And I don’t know how to deal with it. I don’t know what being a man means. I thought acting tough was the way to go.

But now that I think about it… I’m emo."

to life love and happiness .....

"i felt really good this day, yes" by:Bradley Hathaway
"You’re pouring your love all over me and it’s dripping off the tops and sides and bottoms and middles of trees full of splendid little busy bees about doing your purpose how can this be? That you’ve let my heart to see and experience and take in and now to sing… sing sing sing about your love to everybody anybody or the somebody that’s considered a nobody but they are special to thee and for that I thank thee that these things have been shown to me.

Keep this mercy falling down down and this grace falling down down… on the top of my scalp dripping off of my nose down around my bellybutton all the way to my pinky toe cuticle that you made and for that it is cool. Sometimes I play the fool but still your love is all around, sprouting from the ground here and there and everywhere especially on this floor that I now stand.

And how amazingly awesome is your plan that cannot be thwarted by any man no matter how big or strong or ugly or evil he be, because through you is victory. And it’s victory that I now speak of and have to let out of my skin because for too long it’s been contained therein.

Lord I praise you because you are different and efficient. And you’ve tweaked my spirit just enough so that I can taste and see that you truly are good. Like a fresh picked pineapple for the first time in my mouth or the warmth of your sun on the back of my not warm neck on a not warm day. I praise your named today and tomorrow and forever."

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Saturday, August 13th, 2005

10:44 am

i only wished you'd seen the stars.
last night was fun, chilling with the homies, kicking Matt's butt at poker! twice! i am going to miss Steve and Renee so much when they leave! those drunken nights,wild party's in hotel rooms,tons of junk food, it just won't be the same with out them there.
and the night before last was perfect. if ever there was a time the word fit.
for my birthday Kim took my Mom and Me to the pageant of the masters! i haven't said to many words about this because there arn't to many words to be had, you just have to see it. it is truly amazing, art in it's best form. it is living art, paintings done so real that you would never guess that there were real people inside/them. sculptures, cars, and so many other amazing things. it is something i just can't explain with words. there was a huge art exhibit on the way in there that made me ponder and i truly enjoyed, it is so encouraging and inspiring! it made me want to create right there and then. and after the show we went to the beach at laguna, oh how beautiful, how i love that place. we showed our mom where our hang out were in laguna and told her where we stayed and what we normally do when out there, it was something rad. i have come to realize that i am blessed, blessed enough for three people. if they split me in three and divided me up i would have enough joy, good memories, wonderful friends and life and even more love, to me, from me, and for me. that these three peoples lives would be more then overflowingly full with good things. so much love, so much joy, so much grace. there happened to be some skinny dippers at the beach when we got there, it was cute. they were laughing and giggling and running in the cold water. random people were cheering them on and laughing. ("oh to be young again, wild and crazy as we once lived"). after the beach at about 11:30p.m. we drove home. the meteor shower, Me, Kim and Mark peer pressured Danny into coming over, and watching the stars. I'm glad he did, i had a lot of fun, we stayed up and talked all night, i got no sleep. good times. the stars were Amazing! the perfect night to sleep outside.

*when i die, be happy for me, cause i lived a full life, something more then others are rarely lucky enough to do to have and to enjoy. crying if your willing, but joyous and be glad!*

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1:39 am

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

animals? i thought that was lame. but funny to. but it came out to be pretty close to what i would guess for me self. who knows, maybe im a horse.

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Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005

11:17 am

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